Being me

Let's see how do I start to explain what it means to be me. In one word... hard. At least in the last several years. That's the reason for this blog. I thought that if I write about my daily activities, complaints and thoughts it might make others realize they are not alone out there. Maybe even give some inspiration to others. I know my story is not as bad as some have it. Actually I have a lot to be thankful for. I should at least explain a little more about my situation.

I live in a suburb of Atlantic City, New Jersey. I work in a store that is privately owned but is in one of the casinos. I have a beautiful daughter, Kady who is attending college out in California. I live with my mother and brother. See, doesn't sound like too bad of a life, well here is where it gets rough. I am a cashier at the store and only make $8.50 an hour and work at the most, 30 hours a week. Hence, why I live with my mother and brother. I don't have many bills, but the ones I do have are pretty much what I make in a month. So when the month is done I end up at least $100.00 in the hole. Like I said before I do have a lot to be thankful for. I do have a roof over my head and food in my mouth thanks to my mom and brother. Saying that, what I want is not to be dependant on them. I want to find a decent job and financially get back up on my feet. I want to live in my own place and be able to help them out if they need me to.

So my plan is to write about my experiences of trying to accomplish my goal of becoming independent. With that I plan to include as much helpful information as I can to help others. I have been living hand to mouth for so long it is pretty much second nature to me. If I had a nickel for every time someone said "how do you afford to live on the money you make, I wouldn't have to ever worry again. But this past year has been the hardest. I have had to dig myself out of holes before and I have felt like this year I have been buried alive. But as of this moment I am going to change that and I hope in the process I help others do the same. So, if you do start to follow this blog please give me any advice or wisdom you can. And maybe together we can start to turn not only my life around but others in the same boat.

Carol